Today, out of the blue, I had the unusual urge to cry. To cry out loud😭. Not just the muffled cries. No just the concealed tears. Loud and clear. As if I wanted the entire world to know that I had been shedding those despicable drops. Honestly, at first, I was surprised and even angry with myself for doing this😠. "How did I make myself look?"."Oh God! It's all over. I ruined my image.""I wish I'd just disappear from the face of the earth." These were my thoughts, to name a few. Nonetheless, I followed my heart. I shied away from public space, broke down and wept for one good hour😶. I let it all out. People shot at me with several questions. Some expressed concern. And a few didn't bother at all. However, I never answered any of them. The reason being, I myself couldn't pinpoint the exact reason which led me to this piteous, embarrassing state🙌.
But, now when I think of it, it only seems natural. Too many worries, too many distresses had been building up inside me, just like piling up LEGO blocks. And what happens when you've made your LEGO tower too high? It comes crashing down. That's precisely what happened to me☹️. So, i made a decision. I needed to cheer myself up. Thus, I presented myself with a little treat. I had to thank and appreciate myself for getting through all I had made myself go through. All the pressure and the deadlines, all the stress and anxiety. My mind had just taken a toll as it couldn't take anymore of it. Pampering helped me recover. I indulged in some me time. Drank a cup of tea🍵. Sang aloud my all time favorite songไ. Went for a brisk walk🏃. Put on a face mask. Wrote down how I felt📔. Meditated. And last but not the least, consumed quite some of vanilla ice-cream🍨. I did what made me feel better. And that part, I'm sure, mayn't match for you and me. Different people feel better in different ways. That's what makes them different.
Now, you might wonder, "How do I know when I need a break?". Well, that's the tricky part. Just trust your gut. Listen to yourself. Don't shut out your thoughts. Notice and observe🔍. And with a bit of luck, you'll know when you have that inevitable need. And do remember, Crying Is Healthy😋. Even the happiest of people need to cry sometimes. It shows that you're human, not just another machine. A living being. Oh, and I better go, I owe some people an explanation! They've been bombarding my phone for about an hour now. And I'm going to break a leg with one hell of an explanation, as I'm happy once again!😄
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